it aint over till the music stops

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Jackie's Strength-Tori Amos

Life is so weird. I've been through more boys in the past month than I have in a year. It's kind of weird. I didn't even date any of them. Well, I dated one of them, but I guess you can say that it didn't really count because it lasted only 10 days. How pathetic is that?

I really want a boyfriend. I don't want a guy who will use me, or someone that will dump me after a week or so. I want a guy who will treat me like I am important, and not just some girl. I really want the relationship to last too. I don't want one that is going to last for like, 1 month or whatever. I want a strong relationship, a guy who can say that they love me and care about me, and actually mean it. That would be the greatest. I really need something refreshing like that. But it seems like every guy that I ever like, either says that we live to far away, dates me and then dumps me, or I end up hearing things like how they are a player, and how they will hurt me. It sucks. Meh.

So, besides that tiny bit of sadness in my life, I can actually say that I am loving every second that I breathe. Everyday seems like a new adventure. I have been meeting people off of the walls. It's crazy. I have been having a great summer. Partying here and there, with the most random people. I went to Summerfest with Melissa, her cousin Andy, and a bunch of his friends. I met up with my friend Jeremy, and his friend Ben. Later, I hung out with Jeff. We saw Cardboard Vampires, but I wanted to go see O.A.R. Damn them all...haha. I also saw the band Betallica. Er...I think that was the name of the band. They were great! It was a cross between the Beatles, and Metallica. They had the tune of the Beatles, and they changed the words and had the instrumental parts more like Metallica. Haha, they were awesome.

Even though I live in the state of Wisconsin, and I love the Packers, football in general, I have never had the chance to go to Lambeau Field up until this summer. I went with Melissa and her family, and her cousin Wendy, her husband, and her son Brandon ((my second grade buddy from 8th grade)). We went the day after her cousin Mikes wedding. I think it was her cousin...I don't know. Amazing. We got a tour of the entire stadium. I will never forget that day.

Iowa was good I guess. If we scratched out all of the drama, it would have been great. I didn't get my tounge or bellybutton pierced though, because I didn't have an ID on me with my birthdate and such. It sucked. Hopefully, I can get my tounge pierced in April when I go back down there for Spring Break.

Well, I am going to go.

~*Peace*Love*Empathy*~
               Ashley

Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Easy/Lucky/Free~Bright Eyes

So Iowa has been okay, so far. I am supposed to get my belly button and my tounge pierced, but I don't see that happening because of other thiings that we still have to do. I'm going to try my hardest though. I really want both of them done.

I feel used. So I started to like this guy John...right? And everything was going well. I mean, he lives in Iowa, so I didn't expect much...but yeah. Then all of a sudden, Melissa started likeing him. I was cuddleing with him and she got super pist. She pulled me off to the side and was like,

"I like him to Ashley. And you being all over him is makeing me upset"

You know how it is...bullshit like that. So, I...being the good friend that I am, backed off, ((kind of)). Then, she decided to make out with him... I was like..what the fuck?! *stabs knife in my heart*. It only bothers me because she told me to back off because it made her upset, but she goes and does it to me, but worse!? HAHA! That's what I get for being a good friend. Now I'm not going to talk to John just so I don't get in the way of their "Two week Fling". I'll just stay with Kayliegh the rest of the two weeks.

Current Mood: dorky
Current Music: Playboy Mommy~Tori Amos

Today was once again, a ver looooong day. My speech didn't go to well for communications, because I forgot my notecards at home, so I had to 'wing' it. All I had was this Time Line of The Beatles, my CD, and a picture of them. So I skimmed the Time Line, and summarized it. Meh...I hope that I don't get blamed for Plagerisim<<can't spell>>.

Oh my goodness! Tomorrow is YOUTH GROUP! I am so excited! Lol.

I finally get to meet Anthony in PERSON! This is going to be exciting! We are going to the Mayfair on Saturday. I don't know what time yet, but if you wanna come. Just let me know. *commenting or IMing me would be nice!*

So, I thought I liked this guy, and he liked me for a while...but now we don't talk. I don't know if he hates me or not, so I am not going to accuse him of that, but it feels like he does. I think that it's because I'm a 'drama magnet'. That's okay though, because I want someone to like me for who I am, no matter what the situations is.

Awe!! My ex-boyfriend Jimmy has a potential girlfriend! I am so happy for him! Lol. I haven't talked to that kid in a SUPER long time. Hm...maybe I should call him. I should probably find his number first.

In Health Class, we are talking about Abstenince...er, however you spell it. Well, it's really interesting. My friend decided that she was going to do that. She even has a 'purity' ring. I think that it's pretty kewl of her to do that, and be open about it. She is bound to be one of those girls that go somewhere with her life. It's great. :)))

Well, I am going to go now!

~*Peace*Love*Empathy*~

Kitten

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: God's Will~Martina McBride...yea...what now?!

Okay, so people who leave comment anonomysly are pretty dumb. It's so funny how peole will say the rudest things to you, but don't have the fucking guts to sign their name.

If you don't like the fact that I am religious now, DEAL WITH IT! I am still the same person that I was two days ago. I have just chosen to believe in Jesus Christ and God. If you don't want to believe in either one of them, then that's your choice, not mine, BUT, don't put me down for that. No matter how hard anyone tries, it's not going to change my mind...so don't waste your time.

I'm going to go.

 ~*Peace*Love*Empathy*~

Ashley

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Let it be~The Beatles

So, I have felt kind of empty for the past few days because I've felt like something was missing. For a while, I thought that the thing missing, the thing makeing me feel empty, was not having a boyfriend. But, that wasn't the case at all.

Today, I have finally accepted Jesus Christ and God. I have decided that I am going to follow the path of life given to me by God Himself. Although, I am still going to stand by my belief in equality, including Homosexuality. I no longer have that empty feeling, and I am so glad.

If you ever find yourself with time on Wednesdays between 7 and 8:15 in the afternoon, you should come to Youth Group at Life Church. It is located right next to Giggles in Germantown. ~_^

Well, I am going to go now.

**Thinking of you where ever you are.**

~*Peace*Love*Empathy*~

Ashley

Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: Sweet Child of Mine~ Guns N Roses

Happy Noodle Boy makes me HAPPY! ^_^

Here is a funny comic...do read...it's funny!

You Fried Cyclops!

Kung-Fu Kick!

Hey Dog Entity

I just absolutely LOVE Happy Noodle Boy!

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Yesterday~The Beatles

Ew...I never thought that I would be the one to say this, but I really need someone to just hold me in their arms and tell me that they love me. I haven't had someone do that in over 7 months. That's a really L-O-N-G time for me...::sighs::

I have a French Field Trip on the 10th! I'm really excited! ^_^ It's going to be so much fun! I get to hang out with all of my buddies, go to the museum, see some French impressionists and artists work, and then to a French restaurant! I'm so happy!

Anthony's birthday is on Sunday! YAY! He is going to be 16! oOo!!!! He gets his liscense in July! How exciting is that?! And when he gets them, he is coming to visit me, and we are going to hang out, and I'm going to push him into the pool, just because he doesn't like to swim! Lol! YAY! This summer is going to be a blast...

Well, I am going to go...

~*PEACE*LOVE*EMPATHY*~

Ashley

Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Collide~Howie Day

So life has been pretty interesting. I met this really annoying 18 year old who goes to SORES a school for troubled children.

I like this one guy, and I guess he likes me too, but I don't have a clue what is going to happen there. I met this guy from my friend Kristin's work. He is really nice. Lol, he goes to Kettle Moraine.

Life is treating me pretty good I guess. My dad said that if I get more A's than B's, and I can get one C, then I will be able to get ANY guitar that I want. I'm super excited! Lol.

Hmm...it kind of feels like I'm losing one of my best friends. But, that's besides the point.

I met this really great guy. His name is Anthony. He goes to Arrowhead High School. Lol. He is the biggest sweetheart ever, and one of my biggest heros!

Well, I am going to go.

~*Peace*Love*Empathy*~

Ashley

Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Reflection~Christina Agulaira

Yeah, I hate this. My life has to be so fucking perfect for my dad! AHH! I have to be his perfect little girl, who does nothing wrong and someone who will go far in life. Yea, I wish that I could go far. Mike tells me that if I start now, that I could and probably will be famous... HAHA! Yeah, right. But yea, I have nothing to really say right now, because Melissa and I are going to go for a walk to the park now. We have some serious talking to do about Conrad, and Brandon, and David, and Mike, and others.

I love you all.

~*PEACE*LOVE*EMPATHY*~

Ashley